Motherhood and Business
There is no right and wrong in God's world, just the desire of our heart and what we chose to do with them.
I am sitting here while my kids and the rest of my family are in bed. I was looking for a photo for my beef brisket recipe (hehe stay tuned for next week) and I ended up finding some photos of myself and my family this time last year.
No shade on myself but my eyebrows were none existent, my hair was flat, and there was no spark in my eyes. My heart hurt to look at these photos. I see a mama, a girl, a woman who knows she is more but doesn't know how to get there. I feel empathy with her, she is trying her best to nourish herself, breastfeed and look after two tiny babies and figure out what her dreams and purpose is here on earth.
Even though I see a lost girl I also see a soul with a strong will to be more. This time last year I followed a thread and I trusted that I could birth business on the terms of self love and motherhood at the forefront. I trusted I could build a business that could bring me closer to my kids and my loved ones around me because it brought me closer to who I am on earth as “Milo”. To be really honest it has been hard to step back from my kids and step into my soul purpose, launch multiple projects, learn new skills and have my energy elsewhere. Sometimes I feel guilty when my kids are crying to see me but I have a deadline to get someone done or I can't be present with them because my mind is filled with content ideas. Sometimes I wish my timeline was different and I did this all before having kids. I wish I did what other mothers these days did and “have a career first”.
Truth be said is that I just don't have it as all together as it looks and I often doubt if I am doing the “right thing”. There is no right and wrong in God's world, just the desire of our heart and what we chose to do with them. All we can do is try our best everyday here on earth. Some people’s souls are happy to tend their garden, some would rather build a 10 million dollar business, others would want to watch the world go by from the bus stop. Everyone's journey is unique and hard to compare to any others. If you have read this far all I wish for you is that you are happy in your souls journey no matter how big or small that is. And if that feels far away then I challenge you to take one baby step towards that vision today to get you closer to who your soul yearns to be.
Milo x